31.08.08

hi.i am like so godamn tired. im tired of being tired. i got a b3 for english.gonna sue mr.yow.yah.dunno how i got so low cos wasnt in scl on friday.nevermind.when i go to scl or on thursday,can get my progress report from min yi.hope she has it... if not...sigh...patience,patience. im just wondering whats gonna happen on thursday...gonna go wen liang house...wish they at least read the script..they better..anyway,even if they dont,i wont,like do anything to them. in that way, i guess im kinda soft.still get irritatedbut at least i wont,like,shout at them or anything...i guess thats just me. people misinterpret that as cowardliness... im just not aggressive.whats their problem?i hate it when people come piss me off just cos i wont,like,fight back.ok,maybe i am a coward. ill probably be the first to run from a fight.any fight. im not strong enough to take other guys that way and i really dun want to. doesnt mean that people who do not want to fight are cowards.but then gain, i am one. it hurts me to think howeasily i can be trampled upon by this cruel world.. thank god that i have good friends..thanks,wen liang and justin ho. i am such a pathetic little weak,wyrm.how ironic then that i feel human things such as anger and love.i should have no right to these emotions..how evil that i be bestowed with them? i can feel love for someone else,but it will never be returned.how can it?how can someone from the streets actuall feel anything except for revolt or acceptance or at most,friendshipfor me.but love?what hath i been dreaming of? i am a monster. a pathetic useless,weak excuse for a monster. a wyrm.aye,that is what i be.how can i then, expect that urban angel to actually fall for me? how sad. how pathetically sad. oh yeah... will post my poem on ASAP as soon as i find the soft copy,kays

30.08.08

hi.damnit.i know that i said that i can only post once a week, but chances are anew. yes. my dads out doing overnight at his workplace and my mum is going for her teachers day lunch,so am at grandads home. oh well, at least i get to blog... my brother has been bribed wth my handphone and mp3 so he would like, piss off. anyway... i have a funny feeling todays gonna suck. maybe not. in fact, i just think that i can pull through... soon, will go to the keboard lesson that i am taking. its in serangoon road, which is goddamn far away from woodlands. the lessons at 2. thank god that my grandparents are dropping me off. that way, i only have to leave at 12. that gives me about 10 minutes or so to blog.beter make use of it. i am a frstatingly slow typer.. my saturdays seriously suck. can you imagine spending a saturday at serangoon road? it really,really sucks. how annoying. ive gotta study for 2 hours to top it all of, as per my dads wishes yet again. well,no.again. i do not feel like it.at all. i am so godamn pissed. talked to aishwarya and william about getting the lit group for choral reading during MT on thursday. aishwarya and william excelled in aiding in identifying my mistake. i gotta admit, what they said was right. they said that i had done too much of the work and,Wen Liang aside, i had therfore suceded in alienating the rest of the group.well, i do not like alienating pple. sigh. guess i carried myself like a total jerk in front of all of them. Da Jian says that my group only asked me to join them becase thay wanted to use my literature skills. well, its not like i have such great literary skills anyway. you know what, i think i will post my poem here once i can find the soft copy... i really feel bad about being an idiot in the group. i just want everyone to, you know, ace the whole thing. Aishwarya and William said that i should have let them each choose a poem from the net,instead of me writing the whole thing.they say that would have increasedinvolvement.but i just want the group and myself to ace or dowell in this. i know it sounds self-centered,but is it wrong? and i also want the whole group to just go home and read the whole poem and make sense of it. i know that the poem might sound boring but i did put inmy all and would making such a small effort as reading the thing really make them that much more exhausted?yeah,sure,its 4 pages longbut i wrote it with my true feelings so as it progresses maybe it would become more interesting. okay,anyway, i better give WenLiang some credit... he wrte the last 5 lines of the 139 line long poem. and he did a reflection of the poem. thanks,Wen. oh yeah, Aishwarya and William(a and w) also said by doing everything, i have made the 5 of the 7 strong group feel helpless. i dont want to make anyone feel helpless. the one who should feel helpless is me! where is Ms.Jodee Yap when you need her? she used to be a sort of Aunt Agony for the majority of 2e2 who bothered writing her journbal entries. No offense,Ms.Yap. you know about the aunt part... haha. well, i guess that is the end of my pathetic miserable lamentatipons.oh wel, goodbye.

29.08.08

hi.my first time blogging.am dying at my grandfathers home. today was ACES day and teachers day celebrations. i couldnt be bothered to go,anyway. sigh. today is the most uneventful day of my life. i am supposed to do 4 hours of studying as per my dad. well,dad, NO. i dont feel like it. at all. thats the eventful and extremely entertaining story about my life. should have gone to school. no. why did i even think of that? i hate ACES day. do you know what ACES day stands for? ABOMINATION of CIVILISED ESTABLISHED SOCIETY. why, why? which fool invented it,anyway? yeah, i know, its supposed to make us all exercise but we do that all the time during ET and PE in school, right? okay, so i havent been doing so cos of my leg injury for the last 6 months. but i try to lose weight. YES. am out of TAF club. and HARI to THE WORLD: its not because of my leg problem. its because i actually went and lost weight. okay, i better make things clear. i am not going to post regularly. i can,because of the lethal combination of overbearing dad and the nearing of final years, only blog, at most once a week. cant wait for thursday. can go to WenLiang house to do lit. hint: lit is not the reason for my excitement. anyway, i am so bored right now.wish someone would sms me sbout something. so please, if you know my number and am my friend and have my number,sms me. andf please, i beg you, do not be a joker or jackass and sms me if you come across this post,like, a week from nw. thank you world for your kind attention. you may now go back to your lives.kay,sorry. i know that sounded very egoistical. sorry. sigh. i just realised,yet again, to my seemingly endless dismay, that my life sucks. so please, can someone offer me a life with a giant mansion in Hawaii and a hot chick( not the bird chick)? joking.