31.08.08

hi.i am like so godamn tired. im tired of being tired. i got a b3 for english.gonna sue mr.yow.yah.dunno how i got so low cos wasnt in scl on friday.nevermind.when i go to scl or on thursday,can get my progress report from min yi.hope she has it... if not...sigh...patience,patience. im just wondering whats gonna happen on thursday...gonna go wen liang house...wish they at least read the script..they better..anyway,even if they dont,i wont,like do anything to them. in that way, i guess im kinda soft.still get irritatedbut at least i wont,like,shout at them or anything...i guess thats just me. people misinterpret that as cowardliness... im just not aggressive.whats their problem?i hate it when people come piss me off just cos i wont,like,fight back.ok,maybe i am a coward. ill probably be the first to run from a fight.any fight. im not strong enough to take other guys that way and i really dun want to. doesnt mean that people who do not want to fight are cowards.but then gain, i am one. it hurts me to think howeasily i can be trampled upon by this cruel world.. thank god that i have good friends..thanks,wen liang and justin ho. i am such a pathetic little weak,wyrm.how ironic then that i feel human things such as anger and love.i should have no right to these emotions..how evil that i be bestowed with them? i can feel love for someone else,but it will never be returned.how can it?how can someone from the streets actuall feel anything except for revolt or acceptance or at most,friendshipfor me.but love?what hath i been dreaming of? i am a monster. a pathetic useless,weak excuse for a monster. a wyrm.aye,that is what i be.how can i then, expect that urban angel to actually fall for me? how sad. how pathetically sad. oh yeah... will post my poem on ASAP as soon as i find the soft copy,kays